I hate people. I hate human beings. They're all the same, same system, same functions and same egoistic intentions - yet so fucking different. Whoever built mankind - apparently GOD (so much for his help), or the ape and monkey - whatever, whoever it was is a complete douchebag moron. We're not intelligent and we're not as talented as we all think we are. We're not thin or pretty and we're not fat and ugly. We are atoms. Whatever. People are idiots. I'm an idiot, you are, and so is that freak sitting in the city hall. Your mother is an idiot, and so is mine. We all are. It's just mankind. We judge by what we see, not by what we know - but some people do it less intelligently and louder than others. It should be a sin to judge something or someone without having witnessed their story. People look at me with my trousers hanging under my butt and my iPod dangling down my hose, chewing a chewing gum and they'll either think I'm pretty or I'm a darn right fool. But they will not ask themselves "What is she thinking about? What's her story? What does her facial expression mean?" I am not perfect, so I too look at what people are wearing, and if they look bad in their tight belted jeans and greasy shirt I cannot excuse the fact I shall think they're a complete poof. But the difference I make is that I try to read their faces. The actions they perform when they quietly sit in the tram. Are they kicking their feet? Are they nervously tapping their fingers? Why are they smiling? What does it mean if they don't face others' gazes? I try to look beyond their clothing and they equipment. But I doubt that I can figure why people are pulling their hair out - some might be preparing themselves for a music audition - some are going to break up with their partner. Even if every person on this planet Earth has witnessed similar events it does not make us the same or give us the same life. Some people here try to find a reason why their perfect little life is so gruesome and sad when other souls like me try to pick out events that should make our life a happy one.
Either way, whoever you are and reading this, I hate you too, I hate everything about you that makes you human, but on the other hand I could still adore you for you other side, the part of you that makes the difference..
that's all it's about anyway, being different, isn't it ?
Helena Schatz.. wir haben eine lange Geschichte. Ich find keine Worte für die, die hinter uns liegt ausser .. dass das vorbei ist xP. Wir haben uns beide geändert und so wie wir miteinander zurechtkommen ist alles gut. Was heisst hier zurecht ? :D Mehr als das.. ich will mich gnadenvoll bei dir bedanken für .. alles einfach. Dass du überhaupt in meinem Leben existierst. Dass du einer der wenigen Personen bist, die zu mir halten und nicht nur auf die Oberfläche der Situation gucken, die mich verstehen und versuchen zu verstehen. Nicht nur das Vertrauensgefühl ist da.. es ist alles da. Ich fühle mich wohl bei dir. Unsere Lachkrämpfe sind nicht zu überbieten, und die Komik befindet sich manch an solch abstrakten Orten, dass nur wir zwei darüber lachen, und, dass wir den ähnlichsten Humor haben, ist einfach toll :D. Ich hoffe nur, dass die Leute in den Strassen der Stadt Brüssel sich nicht allzu verarscht fühlen und ihr Leben lang traumatisiert sind :'D. Wir sind uns so ähnlich, Alter. Einstellung, Geschmack, Hobbies xP, Treue ? Mützentag (5. November) wird lebenslang jährlich zelebriert. Und natürlich ist unsere Katze nicht auszulassen. Weisst du was Helena ? Du gehörst zu den wichtigsten Leuten menes Lebens, die mich prägen und denen ich nie von der Seite weichen möchte. Ich liebe dich und ich hätte nichts lieber, als diese Freundschaft weiterzuführen, bis wir als Grossmütter möglicherweise im Schaukelstuhl sitzen und an Lachanfällen beinah unser Gebiss rausspucken und einen Herzinfarkt bekommen. Ich liebe dich, mein Gangster.
Friendship is not defined to be perfect, a friend at your side at all times when you need them doesn't exist, it's those who try and ask, those who give you their interest and confidence without it being out of politeness. It's those who you can insult without offence and those you can punch in the face for fun. It's those you share your last sandwich with and could find a way to laugh about a piece of tomato. It's those whose sentences you can complete and whom you can look at and tell what their facial expression means. It's those you just finally got over a laughing fit and give each other a glance and it all starts again. It's those who don't necessarily get you out of trouble, but are in trouble with you. It's those who don't necessarily prevent you from doing stupid things, but do stupid things with you. It's those you can walk down the street with doing whatever possible nonsense without feeling ashamed in the slightest. It's those where what you say isn't necessarily ambiguous, it just matter of fact-ly is related to sex. It's those who don't tell you off for smoking, but who brag that they have more fags left than you do. It's those who will with no hard feelings honestly tell you how ugly you look in your school photo. People often complain how this world is full of bad friends, backstabbers, unloyal gits that didn't care enough about you, but it's wrong. You have to find the right person, the one that matches you and you are satisfied with, and they are hard to find, just like treasures out there.
So when you do make a discovery, you better make sure it's for keep, because trust me, they are rare as fuck.
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As you continue to live, you take paths and find a blessing hidden under every stone. You get disappointed once in a while and you drop it, you learn to let go, even if it was the most precious thing you held. Don't look for things you are missing, grant the things you have because who knows how soon it could all end ? Don't break the rules, make them. Go out and scream it out, live it up. Don't listen to anything but your desires. Be aware your life will flash before your eyes someday, so make sure it's worth watching.